Anna had not given me a picture for a while to post as her picture of the day. Since it is something I want her to enjoy doing I have not asked her for one. However, she took one this morning that she is extremely proud of.
Anna did my hair for me, and I was still in my pajamas. She thought it was a beautiful picture. I am just amazed that I actually agreed to post it.
we’ve committed to our readers is that we will post 9 questions every Saturday. Sometimes the post will have a theme, and at other times the questions will be totally unrelated. Those weeks we do “random questions,” so-to-speak. We encourage you to visit other participants posts and leave a comment. Because we don’t have any rules, it is your choice. We hate rules. We love memes, however, and here is today’s meme!
Saturday 9: You’re My Best Friend
1. Outside of your romantic life, do you currently have a best friend?
Sadly, No. I would like one.
2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for?
Reach a remission in my depression
3. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food? If yes. what did you do?
yes, someone I knew from church. Her husband was put in jail, and she had three young children and no money for groceries. I made a huge, I mean huge pot of beef stew and gave her several quarts worth of it, plus canned good from my pantry, and a few things for the kids. I also baby sat her youngest when she needed to go apply for food stamps and other assistance.
4. If they re-instituted the draft (for both genders and your were of age) would you go, or would find some way out of it?
I would go. I actually believe that every young person in the US should serve a couple of years in the military, like they do in several other countries.
5. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn’t let yourself do.
In some ways I wish I had not tried to commit suicide, however, at the same time I do not regret it because it was the starting point of me getting help.
6. Tell us about the last time you bragged.
I brag everyday. Not in an ugly way though, I am proud of how far I have come in the last year.
7. What area are you wisest in?
I honestly do not think I am “wise” about anything
8. Tell us about something that happened that at the time made you “full of yourself”.
Beating my dad in Uno Attack.
9. Has there ever been a time that you wanted to try something in the bedroom, but were afraid to ask?
Oh I never ask, I tell him what WE are going to try
Disclaimer: This post is not about who is right or who is wrong when it comes to their religious beliefs. This is solely about my religious views, my journey to finding what worked for me and what it means to me.
I grew up with out much religious education. I do not consider this a good or bad thing, it is just how it was when I was growing up. As opportunities came up for me to go to various churches I would go. It did give me the benefit of seeing what different Christian Denominations were like. I have gotten to experience Catholic Churches, Methodist, Baptist and even Church of God. Nothing really ever seemed to be a good fit for me.
It seems to me that since I was a little kid, I have always been looking for a higher power that would fill a void that I always seemed to have inside of me. Searching for whatever this thing was that I needed I even went so far as to join a Pagan Group. It was a hardcore group compared to most Pagan groups and for a bit it seemed to fill that void. Then I realized a few things about the leaders. For whatever reason they enjoyed meddling in the group members lives, to the point where it became detrimental.
So I still floated around for a bit, trying to find that thing, that void filling religious thing I needed. Eventually, I did find it. We joined an Intra-denominational Church. The whole family became very involved in it, and I developed a very close relationship with God. I felt whole and complete. At some point for a variety of reason we left that church and joined a church that had more activities for the children. The kids loved it.
It was about the time we changed churches that I was hospitalized for the first time due to my asthma. It became difficult to go to church because so many people wore such huge amounts of perfume and cologne that it seemed every time I went to church I had an asthma attack. It was also about this time that my depression and anxiety disorder began to take over my life. I was also diagnosed with diabetes a few months after joining this Church. Unfortunately during this time, my son and I started having difficulties in our relationship.
I felt like I was getting slammed with so many things at one time and I was having a hard time coping due to the depression and anxiety disorder. I began to slip deeper and deeper into my depression, and anxiety, and I just could no longer force myself to get up and go to Church. I missed going but I just could not go.
I began to lose my relationship with God. He did not draw away from me, I drew away from him and I became far away from God. I disliked myself so very much and I felt I was not worthy of God’s Love, nor of his Forgiveness. I think that thought, believing I was not worthy of the Love God has for me, and the Forgiveness he has for me, made my misery during that time worse. It added to my feelings of being unloved and isolated.
Now that my mind is feeling better and my depression and anxiety are easing off, I see that I am worthy of God’s Love. I want that relationship back that I had with Him before. I just am not ready to go back to Church yet. Between the smells and crowded spaces, I think I would be so anxious all the time that I would not get anything out of it.
What I am going to do, is see if I can find some Christians online that I feel good about fellowshipping with. I always found being around others with similar mind sets when it comes to Christianity helped me be closer to God. I believe it is due to the encouragement that we all give one another.
With that decision, to look for people online to fellowship with, there has come a certain amount of peace. I am looking forward to drawing closer to God once again.
Have a Blessed Day, Neighbors.
Welcome to Friday Frustrations, a weekly blog carnival dedicated to getting things off your chests whether big or small. If you would like to participate, grab the button and enter your Friday Frustrations link on Conversations with Moms Friday Frustrations Blog Hop.. You can write about several frustrations or just one. It’s up to you.
I am mostly frustration free this week. Last week and the first part of this week were bad, as far as my depression goes. I think I got slammed by to much at one. If I had a frustration, it would be the fact that it is Spring and that means crazy weather here in Georgia. And lots of pollen. Which means I get to look out the window and stare while everyone else is enjoying being outside. The pollen triggers asthma attacks for me. I am going to invest in a Wii fit so that I can get some fun exercise done in the house.
Enjoy your Friday, Neighbors!
My son is under a doctor’s care and should not take P.E. today. Please execute him.
Please excuse Lisa for being absent. She was sick and I had her shot.
Please excuse me for being absent last week. I am in pursuing my life’s dream and training to become a Master Burger Flipper at McDonald’s.
Please ekscuse John being absent on Jan. 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, and also 33.
Please excuse Gloria from Jim today. She is administrating.
Please excuse Roland from P.E. for a few days. Yesterday he fell out of a tree and misplaced his hip.
John has been absent because he had two teeth taken out of his face.
Please excuse Ray Friday from school. He has very loose vowels.
Please excuse Tommy for being absent yesterday. He had diarrhea and his boots leak.
Please excuse Jimmy for being. It was his father’s fault.
I kept Billie home because she had to go Christmas shopping because I don’t know what size she wear.
Please excuse Jennifer for missing school yesterday. We forgot to get the Sunday paper off the porch, and when we found it Monday, we thought it was Sunday.
I didn’t come to school yesterday because I was feeling like I was going to be sick, but thankfully I wasn’t!
I’m sorry but my baby sitter flushed my homework down the toilet.
Carlos was absent yesterday because he was playing football. He was hurt in the growing part.
April Fool’s Day is next week, and I believe it happens to be one of Anna’s favorite Holidays. I think it is because it is day devoted to being mean to her mother, which happens to be me. For obvious reasons I have not been up to it for the last few years. This year is different. I am ready to get even with Anna for several years’ worth of April Fool’s pranks. I have thrown the gauntlet down.
The problem is I have only come up with one prank so far. I am going to take all the left shoes of her shoe pairs. She leaves them laying all over the place so it should be easy to do.
What I need is some ideas for other pranks to play on her. The only rules to the pranks are they cannot cause her pain, or hurt her feelings. If ya’ll would leave some ideas for some good natured pranks to play on my daughter in the comments I would appreciate it.
Help me be sneaky, Neighbors!
Welcome to the March 25th version of Thursday Thunks!
(which we always seem to post on Wednesday)
Where we make you think a little bit before you blog!
We pick a subject, and your job is to interpret it anyway you want. Write about it on your blog… simple as that. Maybe you can interpret it as a picture – we don’t care!
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This week we will answer some crazy questions brought to you by Berleen, the color of nothing, and the number one.
1. I got nothing. What should I ask next week? Although I think Kimber should do it next week. Somehow.
Would your rather sleep with your SO or your family pet?
2. Wind chimes – annoying or not?
not
3. Camping – camper or tent?
of course a tent, a camper would not really be camping.
4. Told ya I got nothing. This really sucks. I should have had Bud do this, huh?
sure, why not?
5. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?
M
6. So this week my kid had to type a research paper for English…. then she had to email it to her teacher! Is that not just the oddest thing ever? Blew my mind away.
LOL not it makes perfect sense and does not waste paper.
7. Wow. These questions suck. They suck bad. Do you like to suck through straws? For what type of beverages?
anything but milk, some how it seems wrong to suck milk through a straw.
8. What do you do with your cell phones when you do those wonderful “upgrades” to the newer, fancier phones?
If I have not dropped it into the toilet and killed it, I donate them to a battered women’s shelter for the women to have a phone to call 911 with.
9. It’s allergy season – unless you’ve completely missed all the people walking around with kleenexs stuck to their nose… what are you allergic to?
ummm it might be easier to name what I am not allergic to. Pine Pollen and that is only because it is too big to fit into my nose. LOL
I am highly allergic to almost everything, and I live in an area where either I am surrounded by trees or hay fields or cow pastures. I do not go outside much this time of year.
10. What did you sleep with as a child? A stuffed dog I got at Disney World, I named her Cinderella and called her Cindy for short. I still have her.
Guess What? I went shopping and I actually had fun!!! I found out tonight that the stores are not crowded on Wednesday nights. Since my daughter is out of town my husband and I went out to eat at a Mexican Restaurant and then we went to Walmart. We went there to see if we could find a Wii and a Wii fit thing, they did not have either one. So instead I bought some new clothes. I got a pair of black capris, a cute pair of jeans that turn into capris and two new shirts (one purple and one orange, my favorite colors). I am excited about the jeans. They actually fit and are not too long. The problem I have with jeans is that with my fat rear end, often when I find jeans to fit that, the jeans are way too long. These fit great. I also got a new pair of cute black shoes that will go with my capris and my other pants.
Then we went to the grocery store. I had fun there too. For years before my depression started, I always did the grocery shopping by myself or with the kids, and they were smaller then. It was a pain in the butt. When my depression got bad and I could not leave the house my husband did all the grocery shopping. Now we try and do it together and I realized tonight that I like it best that way. We help each other and not one person is left to do all the shopping and has to put the groceries up themselves. My husband unloads the groceries from the truck and I put them up.
I fully realize it is silly to get excited about shopping. It has just been so long since I actually enjoyed it, that I am excited about it. Also, finding a night when it is not crowded at the stores is exciting. Now I know when I want to go shopping Wednesday night is the time to go.
I know I have been in a down stage for the last week or so. I am happy to be happy about something.
Be Happy, Neighbors!
My list of thirteen this week is thirteen unique McDonalds
1. Happy Meal McDonald’s in North Dallas, Texas
2. Over Pass McDonald’s in Vinita, Oklahoma
3. Most fun McDonald’s is in Florida. Has Gourmet menu, including Pizza. Huge maze, super slide, over 100 arcade games, waterfall, 500 gallon aquarium.
4. McDonald’s in the Arctic Circle. There is a snowmobile drive thru.
5. McDonald’s in Times Square
6. The World’s Oldest Operating McDonald’s
7. Dinosaur McDonald’s in Tuscan, Arizona
8. Biltmore McDonald’s, styled after Biltmore Castle. Has vaulted ceilings and fireplaces.
9. World’s Largest McDonald’s is in Rome, Italy. The most expensive Big Mac is sold here. Filled with Frescos. It has 800 seats.
10. Smallest McDonald’s is in Tokyo, Japan and is only 492 square feet.
11. McDonald’s Navan in Ireland is in a building that is over 100 years old and used to be a post office.
12. Space Shuttle McDonald’s located in the Atlanta, Georgia Suburbs . Space Shuttle in playground with Ronald McDonald in the pilot seat. I used to take my son to play at this McDonald’s
13. In Spring Dale, Arkansas there is a McDonald’s with an airplane. The twin engine, turbo prop airplane hovers over the roof of the McDonald’s.
I have been sleeping so much the last few many days. I think there are several reasons for this. One is that my psychiatrist has me taking my anti-anxiety more than I had been, due to the recent episode of anxiety. Also my anti-anxiety medication is used as a sleep aid and when I wake up at night he wants me to take some then as well. The result is that I feel sleepy all the time. Today with my daughter gone, and with it being a bit chilly out, Minnie (the dog) and I cuddled under blankets and napped away most of the day.
Anna is going to be gone for the rest of the week. My mom is town for a short while and Anna decided to go with mom to her place in Augusta. That should be fun for Anna.
I accidentally slept through my counseling session yesterday. It seems I worried everyone in the office because I always show up. The counselor called and we did a mini session on the phone and rescheduled.
I may be struggling mental health wise and that is the other reason I am sleeping so much. My natural instinct is to sleep whenever I am feeling more than a little depressed. Between having to put my oldest dog to sleep and some issues with my son, and a personal health thing that has cropped up, I am feeling a bit overwhelmed and down. Close your eyes if you have a delicate stomach….for whatever reason, when I have a bowel movement I am pooping what appears to be quite a bit of blood. I figure it is probably not a huge problem, but it still makes me worry and the thought of having to go to the doctor for it causes me even more worry. I have been putting off going to the doctor because I honestly hate the thought of what I know the doctor is going to have to do to figure out what is going on.
I have been rather quiet when it comes to blogging the last couple of days because of what all has been on my mind, and I am sort of dreading the rest of the week with no counseling and no Anna to keep me distracted. I think I need to dive into writing some blog posts to pass the time.