Despite my positive affirmation yesterday morning, tomorrow was sort of an OK day. Nothing horrible but at the same time I was a bit more down than I have been in a while. Maybe it was because it was yet another rainy day. Or it could have just one of those days that normal people have and I am over analyzing it. Since it is common for me to have exaggerated emotions , due to the depression and anxiety, I will often over analyze my emotions. I need to get out of that habit.
Anna was funny last night. I declared last night a no cooking night, so we all sort of scrounged around for food. Anna volunteered to cook me and her some cream of wheat. Once she realized all I was going to do was to show her how to do it, and not really do it for her, she whined and whined about how she was not cut out for cooking. She kept it up the whole time she was cooking. Finally the cream of wheat was done and she did an excellent job.
Yesterday, Anna spent more time hanging out with me than she has done in a long time. It was nice. Both of us were still doing our own thing but we could talk to each other at the same time.
I love the horror movies from the 80’s.. Anna does too. Last night, we watched the original Halloween on AMC. It was great! I do not care how many times I have see that movie it will never get old for me. My other favorite is the first Nightmare on Elm Street. Good thing Anna likes those kind of movies too. She watches them with me. Farrol absolutely hates them and does not understand why we enjoy them so much.
Category Archives: Mental Health
Anna's Picture Of The Day – October 28, 2009
Anna and Friend
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Guest Blogger
Have you ever wanted to try your hand at blogging but were intimidated by the process? Or do not think you could write enough to fill a blog? Or even wanted to just try it out before you set up a blog for yourself? Have you thought about being a regular contributor to a blog, but did not want to have one of your own? Maybe you already have a blog of your own but you want some more exposure for it?
Here is the answer to all those questions! I am looking for guest bloggers, someone who contributes occasionally, and/or regular blogging contributors.
Topics for blogs must be geared toward the blog’s main topics, depression, anxiety, diabetes. You can describe what your own anxiety attacks feel like, even talk about mild depression, or how you or a family member cope with diabetes. You can have an article that gives advice about any of those topics, or one that is strictly informational, or a personal blog post about any of those topics. If any of the main blog topics you decide to write about are comorbid with something else, you can write about how the conditions affect each other. As you can see there are so many ways you can take those topics.
Perfect writing skills are not mandatory. Just write clearly, get your point across, and together we can fix any grammar or spelling mistakes.
Guest Bloggers can submit articles whenever they feel like it. No deadlines. Regular blog contributors must submit something at least once a week.
You will be given full credit for anything you contribute to the blog
If you are interested in being a guest blogger or regular contributor, send me an article that you would like to see posted on the blog. I will review it and let you know if I decide to use it in the blog and when it will post.
Daily – October 27, 2009
Yesterday had its ups and downs. For parts of the day I felt really down in the dumps and really discouraged. Other parts of day I felt cheerful and encouraged about things. An acquaintance of mine seems to have issues with people with mental disorders and said some really not nice things to me. So I am sure that is why I was feeling down part of the day. However, I did not let it get to me as much as I would have in the past. I simply buried myself in working on my blog. That kept me from thinking about the things that were said, and at the same time encouraged me. I really am enjoying myself designing my blog. I think I will start designing another one just for the fun of designing.
Sometimes I wish people paid more attention to what they were saying. They have not idea what someone’s state of mind is when they are talking to them, so they have no idea how damage words can do. It is no that they should be prevented from saying what they want to, but there are ways they can speak the truth without it being unnecessarily harsh 
Anna seems to be over being mad at me. In fact she was in a great mood today. We are talking more than we had in the recent past, and getting along better. That was the other part that was good about the day.
Anna's Picture Of The Day – October 27, 2009
Fallen Trees
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Guest Blogger
Have you ever wanted to try your hand at blogging but were intimidated by the process? Or do not think you could write enough to fill a blog? Or even wanted to just try it out before you set up a blog for yourself? Have you thought about being a regular contributor to a blog, but did not want to have one of your own? Maybe you already have a blog of your own but you want some more exposure for it?
Here is the answer to all those questions! I am looking for guest bloggers, someone who contributes occasionally, and/or regular blogging contributors.
Topics for blogs must be geared toward the blog’s main topics, depression, anxiety, diabetes. You can describe what your own anxiety attacks feel like, even talk about mild depression, or how you or a family member cope with diabetes. You can have an article that gives advice about any of those topics, or one that is strictly informational, or a personal blog post about any of those topics. If any of the main blog topics you decide to write about are comorbid with something else, you can write about how the conditions affect each other. As you can see there are so many ways you can take those topics.
Perfect writing skills are not mandatory. Just write clearly, get your point across, and together we can fix any grammar or spelling mistakes.
Guest Bloggers can submit articles whenever they feel like it. No deadlines. Regular blog contributors must submit something at least once a week.
You will be given full credit for anything you contribute to the blog
If you are interested in being a guest blogger or regular contributor, send me an article that you would like to see posted on the blog. I will review it and let you know if I decide to use it in the blog and when it will post.
Anna's Picture Of The Day -October 26,2009
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Daily – October 26, 2009
I have been working diligently all weekend to bring you a much improved looking blog. I hope that I have accomplished it. It was not all that easy, because I was having to learn to code as I went. I took quite a bit of the unnecessary bits away, moved a few things around, and changed the background. The biggest thing I am excited about is, if things worked correctly, you should see a new font in some places of the blog. This is a huge accomplishment if it worked out, because blogger itself has limited choices on what fonts you can use, so I had to do a bit of code manipulating to get things to work out the way I wanted. I believe the font should show up for most everyone.
My other bit of exciting blog news is that I had a huge amount of visitors on Friday. That was very exciting for me. Although I am not blogging to make money, it does make me feel good to when I see how many people dropped by.
I made my daughter very upset with me today. Once again my husband had to work on a Sunday. She wanted to go to youth group this evening. Because of the time of day we were going to have to go to town and because of the anxiousness I felt today, I just could not take her. I know she was very disappointed in me and in the fact she could not go. It made me sad.
My daughter hates my profile picture. She says I have an awful stare going. I guess I am going to have to fix my hair, put some makeup on, and put on decent clothes so she can take a better picture of me.
Oh YAY!!! Just now, after several days of not hearing from him, my son texted me.
Neither In Or Out
I have blogged more than once about my anxiety and how it can and has prevented me from leaving the house on a frequent basis. For example, today my husband had to work, and my daughter wanted me to take her to youth group, but the time of day we needed to go and where we were going caused my anxiety levels to increase dramatically. In the end I had to tell her “No”. She was very disappointed with me, and I was very sad because I had disappointed her. So you can see how the anxiety I have can really get in the way of life, and not just mine.
There is another aspect to my anxiety that I have not blogged about. It is not bad enough that I have horrible anxiety and panic attacks that prevent me from leaving the house often, but I also have a similar reaction when people come to my house. Now isn’t that a kicker?
If I know someone is coming to my house a day or two before they are due to come, I start feeling anxious. Even though the house is clean, I will go through and reclean it and turn into a horrible, mean, nag towards my husband and daughter so they will help and make things my image of “perfect”. We all know how easy it is to reach perfection. By the time my husband convinces me the house cannot get any cleaner, I am so stressed that I am miserable and have made everyone around me just as miserable.
If someone just shows up to my house, well then “it ain’t purty”. As soon as they leave, I have to go to bed. I stay in bed until the next day and hope that the stress of an unexpected visit will go away.
I know why I have such a reaction when people come over. My house is my safety zone. It is and also represents the one place where I am “free to be me”. I do not have to act like I am comfortable, because I already am. I do not have to pretend like I want to talk to people, because I do not have to here. I do not have to wear makeup and if it is a bad mental health day, I can stay in my pajamas all day. Or I can have naked laundry day. Having to leave it sometimes is bad, but to have people invade, and it feels like an invasion to me, my safety zone it is almost more than I can bear.
When I first started seeing my counselor, she did some kind of assessment on me to see what sort of services I qualified for from their practice. I qualified for everything. I am considered a high risk patient because of the suicide attempts. One of the things I qualified for was some kind of extra service where these social workers would come to my house on the weekends or during the week, basically whenever I did not have an appointment and sort of provide me with extra support. I liked the idea until my counselor let me know about the whole having to come to my house thing. Then I had sort of melt down in her office. I had not been seeing her long, so she did not know about the whole panic attack when people come over to my house thing. She decided, after witnessing my panic attack, that it would do more harm than good to have the social workers show up to my house.
I look at this and I can see how dramatically it affects me and my life, the unfortunate thing is that it affects my husband and daughter as well. She cannot have friends spend the night over because of me not being able to handle people in the house and the noise they make (that is a story for another day). My husband cannot have his guy friends over. Depression and anxiety are diseases that take a toll on the whole family.
My hope is that one day I can feel less anxious about going places and way less anxious about my house being invaded by other people. Sometimes it seems like this whole recovery process is taking so long. I often have to remind myself that it does take a long time, and I have not been in treatment all that long.
Guest Blogger
Have you ever wanted to try your hand at blogging but were intimidated by the process? Or do not think you could write enough to fill a blog? Or even wanted to just try it out before you set up a blog for yourself? Have you thought about being a regular contributor to a blog, but did not want to have one of your own? Maybe you already have a blog of your own but you want some more exposure for it?
Here is the answer to all those questions! I am looking for guest bloggers, someone who contributes occasionally, and/or regular blogging contributors.
Topics for blogs must be geared toward the blog’s main topics, depression, anxiety, diabetes. You can describe what your own anxiety attacks feel like, even talk about mild depression, or how you or a family member cope with diabetes. You can have an article that gives advice about any of those topics, or one that is strictly informational, or a personal blog post about any of those topics. If any of the main blog topics you decide to write about are comorbid with something else, you can write about how the conditions affect each other. As you can see there are so many ways you can take those topics.
Perfect writing skills are not mandatory. Just write clearly, get your point across, and together we can fix any grammar or spelling mistakes.
Guest Bloggers can submit articles whenever they feel like it. No deadlines. Regular blog contributors must submit something at least once a week.
You will be given full credit for anything you contribute to the blog
If you are interested in being a guest blogger or regular contributor, send me an article that you would like to see posted on the blog. I will review it and let you know if I decide to use it in the blog and when it will post.
