I did a funny not-so-superhero name generator and loved the name it came up with for me.  The Skippin Ninja.  I instantly got a really cool mental image in my head.


When I was a kid and things were bothering me, or I was really sad about something, I would pretend I was a superhero of some sorts to get through the day.  That little game helped me make it through more than one really bad day when I was growing up.  


I played it only in my head, and no one ever knew that is what I was doing.  However, it always gave me the extra little bit I needed for whatever reason.  As a superhero, I had more physical strength, and I had more confidence in myself.  I had something that was secret, and it belonged only to me.


With that I game I could slay the dragons in my life.  I could right the wrongs that had been done to me.  I could become impervious to hands that hurt and words that hurt.  


I mentioned this little game and how it made me feel to my counselor a few weeks ago.  She suggested I use it now, as an adult, to help get through bad days.  Whether it was a bad day from depression, or anxiety, or my diabetes was making me feel bad, of if my asthma was acting up. 


I had not really given it much thought since then.  However, when that name came up from the name generator, The Skippin Ninja, I totally saw my new alter ego.  


I get this mental image of The Skippin Ninja kicking the snot out of any depressed thoughts, suicidal thoughts, or just plain negative thoughts I might have, and then just cheerfully skipping away, whistling a merry tune.  I can also see The Skippin Ninja motivating me to make sure I check my sugar when I am supposed to and not procrastinating when it comes to shot time.  The Skippin Ninja is so full of confidence that when I get anxious or am close to a panic attack, she prevents my anxiety from overwhelming me.  I can envision the Skippin Ninja, skipping around the people in my life that I need to set better boundaries with, all the while making silly faces and mocking them so that those people are no longer intimidating to me.

Watch out bad days, The Skippin Ninja is on the prowl.