Over the weekend, my husband happened to be home several times when it was time for me to take my medications.  He was able to finally witness for the first time, how I am before I take my medications, and how I am afterwards.  He finally had the Aha moment I had been waiting for.  

He realized that some of my not wanting to do things away from the house, is due to how sleepy the medications make me feel.  He saw me go from a wide awake person to someone who could barely keep their eyes open.  


I feel much less stress now.  I am not feeling like I am not performing to someone else’s expectations and I no longer have those “I am a slacker” feelings.  I feel like another weight has been lifted off of me.  


My husband even went so far as to discuss with me about whether or not my medications needed to be changed again, based on how sleepy they make me.  For the first time I was able to explain to him that most of the medications for depression will cause me to be that sleepy.  I also was able to tell him that I did not want to change medications.  I was able to tell him how bad my depression made me feel physcially, before we found this combination of medication and how I was not willing to take a chance on going back to that.  If we started messing with the medications there would be a good chance I would go back to physical and mental state.  


I really hope this state of understanding lasts.  I hope that me having less stress will last.  I believe with this better understanding, that my husband and I have a better chance of making it through the difficult times ahead.