This picture is an accurate representation of how I have felt the last couple of days. I am exhausted. When I wake up, I feel like I have not gotten any sleep, and no amount of coffee is enough to get me moving. All I want to do is crawl under the blankets on my bed and not move. Of course, with the way things are sometimes, even my bed is not a total guarantee of rest. Night sweats have been plaguing me as well.

At first, I thought what I am feeling was totally due to being physically tired, and sore after all that furniture moving I did the other day. However, after thinking about it, I have come to believe that the way I am feeling is a combination of physical, and mental exhaustion. I do not think it would be inaccurate to say that part of what I am feeling is also the physical manifestation of a few depression symptoms. I think with all the emotional ups, and downs – as well as dealing with someone else’s irrational behavior – what I am feeling is probably normal.

Just because it is normal, does not mean it feels good. I really dislike this complete, and total exhausted feeling. I do realize that it is a sign that I need to do a few things to get myself back to feeling like I want to. Now that Christmas and New Year’s are over, I think life will slow down a bit. I will use that time to re-energize. I will work very hard to surround myself with positive thoughts, and people. I am also going to continue taking steps to eliminate the extreme drama that is going on as a result of “other people’s behavior”.

Blah!