Still not much sleep, but at least it was a few minutes longer than I have been getting.  Oh well, I am sure the psychiatrist and I will find a solution soon.  In the mean time, I will sleep when I can and drink loads of coffee when I cannot.

I felt really good today, almost back to how I felt years ago.  Even though the medication does start working fairly quickly, most of the time it does not reach its full potential for at least four to six weeks, which is about the length of time I have been taking it.  I wonder if it is reach more therapeutic levels and that is why I feel better. 

I am struggling with writing parts of the blog right now.  Some of it is so personal and things that I have tried not to think about for years and years, that it causes some pain when I think about it.  However, I think it has been good for me to get things out in the open, acknowledge the things that hurt and changed me and then maybe this time I can move on past them.

I really procrastinated yesterday about writing in the blog, just because of the memories, but I got through it.  Today I made myself start on each much earlier so I could just go ahead and get the pain out of the way for the day.