When I lived in the Land Of The Lost I was filled with a darkness that penetrated my soul, leaving me weary, and full of sadness and pain. I became a shadow of what I once was, and what I could have been. I mourned what I had lost and what was never to be. Loved ones tried to enter the land of the lost and rescue me, but I hid from them. I believed that I did not belong in a Land Of Love And Light. I thought I deserved the suffering that the darkness inside of me caused. Oh, how I suffered.
There was a voice in that internal darkness. A voice that eerily sounded like my own. It whispered cruel and horrible things to me. It lied and twisted things, and I believed what it was saying to me. The more I believed the voice, the more power the darkness gained. As its power grew, so did its cruelties and my pain. Soon, all I could think about was ending the pain.
As I wallowed in my darkness and pain, I began to plan my escape from the Land Of The Lost. There was only one way I thought I could escape. That was to allow the internal darkness to consume me, bringing about my end. As I waited to be consumed, I discovered a little light inside me, it had hidden itself from the darkness. It was strong for such a little light, and it too had a voice. Instead of saying cruel and horrible things to me, the light comforted me, encouraged me and told me I was worthy. This little light led me through the Land Of The Lost, to the Land Of Love And Light.
Now, that little light guards me and keeps me from being consumed once again by darkness, it prevents me from hiding myself away in the Land Of The Lost again. It is my beacon, that keeps me focused on living in the Land Of Love And Light.
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M- I am thrilled that you choose to live in the Land of Love and Light! I commend you on sharing your story! It matters, you matter!
It’s amazing the lives we touch and the hope we bring when we share our stories and the parts of ourselves that are not always the ‘pretty’ but are part of who we are and who we have become as we grow from our experiences.
Keep writing and sharing! 🙂
Thanks Angela! I am usually much more straight forward in my writing but I have been experimenting with different writing styles and that topic and how I wrote it seemed like a good way to sum up what it felt like for me when my depression was much worse than it is now.
M- I am thrilled that you choose to live in the Land of Love and Light! I commend you on sharing your story! It matters, you matter!
It’s amazing the lives we touch and the hope we bring when we share our stories and the parts of ourselves that are not always the ‘pretty’ but are part of who we are and who we have become as we grow from our experiences.
Keep writing and sharing! 🙂
Thanks Angela! I am usually much more straight forward in my writing but I have been experimenting with different writing styles and that topic and how I wrote it seemed like a good way to sum up what it felt like for me when my depression was much worse than it is now.
I love this post so much. Such a brilliant explanation of the darkness of depression and the things that pull you through it.
Thanks Livi! I was hoping that it would be clear what the subject matter was even though I was writing about it in a different way.
I love this post so much. Such a brilliant explanation of the darkness of depression and the things that pull you through it.
Thanks Livi! I was hoping that it would be clear what the subject matter was even though I was writing about it in a different way.
A very powerful description of depression and one I am well familiar with. I’m glad you found that little like to pull you out again.
Thank you, Josie. This was a very different style of writing than I usually do. I was not sure if I would be able to get my point across without directly saying what the subject matter was. However, I think I did a really good job. I am definitely going to have to write this way again.
or *light*, even!
A very powerful description of depression and one I am well familiar with. I’m glad you found that little like to pull you out again.
Thank you, Josie. This was a very different style of writing than I usually do. I was not sure if I would be able to get my point across without directly saying what the subject matter was. However, I think I did a really good job. I am definitely going to have to write this way again.
or *light*, even!