Today’s prompt is to write about something I hope I never have to do. Wow…There are so many things I hope I never have to do. I also know I cannot spend too much time focusing on those things. That type of thinking is dangerous for me, it can lead to depression symptoms. It could also lead to a full blown depressive episode. With that in mind, I am going to change the writing prompt just a little bit, now it is to write about something that I hope never happens again.

I hope that I never again experience such a severe, and long lasting depressive episode. That dark feeling hurt so much – physically, emotionally, and mentally. It wore me out – body and soul. It almost cost me my life. I can honestly say that it was the worst thing I have ever experienced. During the worst of my depression, I felt so unloved, and alone. I did not feel worthy of anything good. Quite frankly, I the thought of going back to such a state of depression scares me.

I have not wasted what I learned in my dark days, and the treatment afterwards. I have learned a great deal about myself, and others. I am probably more at peace with myself than I have ever been in my whole life. The best thing I have gained from that experience is a love of life.