The writing prompt for today is to write a post about something I hope to do in my life. I have several things I am hoping to do in my life. I guess in a way they can be considered goals that I would like to accomplish. Which is amazing to me. In the grand scheme of things, it has not been that long since my ONLY goal in life was to die. There are times when I am in utter disbelief at how much I have changed, and my thinking has changed in such a short time.

As I said, I have several things I am hoping to do in my life, but I think the scariest one is to have a book published. Writing on a blog is one thing. I am solely responsible for the content, and approving the comments. A book is another animal altogether. Not only am I putting myself out there in a way that is different than blogging, but it means having someone else look over what I have written with a more critical eye. Someone else will have the power to approve what I have written, as well as opening myself up to the possibility of many people reviewing what I have written. Not everyone will like it. There will be some negative comments. That total lack of control about what people can say about a book I have written scares the snot out of me.

As much as that lack of control scares me, I am going to go through with my goal to write a book. I am going to do it because it has become important to me to share what my life was like before depression treatment, and how wonderful life can be after depression treatment. I want it to be a book full of hope, and a source of inspiration to people who are in the same darkness I spent so many years in.