Stressful day today.  Ugh!  I wanted to go hide under the covers before ten in the morning.  I resisted the urge though.  My counselor had suggested a couple of sessions ago, to resist the urge of hiding under the covers as a way to deal with a bad day.  She said all that it does is make me isolated and alone with my own thoughts, which could still turn suicidal rather quickly.  So I kept myself busy.  Just little things here and there.  It certainly did not improve my frame of mind, but it did keep be busy enough so that I did not let my thoughts wander to where they should not.  The other thing she told me was if all I could accomplish on a bad day was to not hide under the covers than I should consider it a success.  Little victories I guess.  

Anna and I were talking today and I was telling her how much fun designing my blog had been, and she mentioned she would like to help with one, and she wanted music on it.We decided to create a blog together.  Our subject matter will be completely fun.  We are both looking forward to it.  

No one had told my grandmother about Nick getting married.  I assumed my parents would tell her, but they did not.  I was on the phone with her today, and happened to mention it and she was shocked.  I think she was hurt as well, that none of us thought to tell her about it.  Like I said, I expected my parents to tell her, I need to just remember that I cannot always trust them to pass information along.  

I am really hoping and praying that tomorrow I experience much less stress and anxiety than I have been feeling over the last few days.  I cannot figure out just why I have been feeling that way, but back before I started getting treatment there were times that I could not identify why either.