It is four in the morning and I still have not been able to sleep. I think I know why. Today is the day, that my change is depression medications is probably going to start. I cannot say I am worried about it, but I have been thinking about it. I have not been able to shut my brain off. I keep wondering if the withdrawal from the Effexor is going to be as bad as I have read it can be. It either will be or it won’t, but I still wonder how it will be for me. I have also been thinking about what type of new depression medication the doctor will try. If she is going to keep it in the same class of medications (SSNRI) or if she is going to go in a completely different direction?
I really should not have allowed this thinking to keep me up all night. Unfortunately, I did. I just did not get it turned off in time to allow me some sleep. This is kind of like the old days of not being able to turn my brain off. I have tools now to stop this all night thinking, tools I did not have in the past. For whatever reason, I chose not to use them.
I have been productive in this time of no sleeping. I changed my blog layout, and fixed breakfast for my husband. Did some reading and caught up on some of the blogs I follow. Even with all that productivity, my mind keep going back to what might, could, or would happen today. Obsessive thinking. No other way to describe it.
I think I had gotten so used to how good I felt and my brain felt on Effexor, that until all the recent medical issues with it, I had willingly accepted the fact that I would probably be on it for the rest of my life. That was MY plan. Once again, I am being shown that I do not need to create so many of my own plans. I need to be more flexible. If I had not set my mind on Effexor being my forever drug then chances are, I probably would not have spent so much time thinking about the upcoming changes.
I will chalk this up as yet another lesson learned. I hope everyone has a great day!
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I hope your withdrawal goes smoothly. I found that when it got bad, I just reminded myself that it's normal and, most importantly, temporary. {hugs}
I hope your withdrawal goes smoothly. I found that when it got bad, I just reminded myself that it’s normal and, most importantly, temporary. {hugs}
Thanks! I think I will go stay at my mother’s house during part of the withdrawal.
Thanks! I think I will go stay at my mother’s house during part of the withdrawal.
Hi Melissa,
(I've been trying to visit people who became a follower on my Google and I'm sorry I haven't visited sooner. I've been blogging on an off and only recently got back into a regular pattern.)
Anywhoooo, I do not have depression, but I do have other mental reasons for having insomnia and am close to those who suffer from depression. I feel so for you. I often go into that circular, revved up, can't sleep cycle when something is on my mind, particular a change as important as you will be encountering. I've also learned methods to help stop it, but sometimes the comfortable "old" way of staying up all night takes over.
I hope your new meds are a good fit. Depression is far more serious, life altering, and darn tough than many people realize.
My very best wishes,
Gel
Hi Melissa,
(I've been trying to visit people who became a follower on my Google and I'm sorry I haven't visited sooner. I've been blogging on an off and only recently got back into a regular pattern.)
Anywhoooo, I do not have depression, but I do have other mental reasons for having insomnia and am close to those who suffer from depression. I feel so for you. I often go into that circular, revved up, can't sleep cycle when something is on my mind, particular a change as important as you will be encountering. I've also learned methods to help stop it, but sometimes the comfortable "old" way of staying up all night takes over.
I hope your new meds are a good fit. Depression is far more serious, life altering, and darn tough than many people realize.
My very best wishes,
Gel
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