1. The illnesses I live with are: Clinical/Major Depression and Generalized Anxiety Disorder

2. I was diagnosed with them in: May of 2009

3. But I  have had symptoms since: On and off for most of my life.

4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: Learning how to take part in my own life again.

5. Many people assume:  Depression is simply being sad.

6. The hardest part about mornings are: Getting over my “drug hangover”.

7. My favorite medical TV show is: I do not watch medical shows anymore, most contain plot lines that I find depressing.

8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is:  My computer

9. The hardest part about nights are:  Not sleeping well and lately I have been having really bad nightmares.

10. Each day I take 14 pills, at least 4 injections, and 4 puffs on inhaler.

11. Regarding alternative treatments I: choose not to use herbs or herbal supplements, I am afraid they would not mix well with my medications.

12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: I have both an invisible illness and several visible illnesses.  In my opinion, neither is a better one to have.

13. Regarding working and career:  I cannot work outside of the home due to the various illnesses I have.  I work hard to find ways to make money from home.

14. People would be surprised to know:  How much better I am compared to where I was this time last year and how much my daily medication routine affects me.

15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been:  How my medications affect me.

16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was:  Enjoy life again.

17. The commercials about my illness:  Make it seem easier than it really was for me at the worst of times.

18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is:  Actually nothing.  I am doing more now than when I was diagnosed.  By the time I was diagnosed, I had almost quit functioning.

19. It was really hard to have to give up: My suicidal thoughts.  They had been such a constant, continuous thing for so long, that it was hard to get through a day without having them.  In some ways, they were the only reliable thing in my life.

20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: Writing

21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: I do not know. I do not think I even know what normal is anymore.

22. My illness has taught me: To accept myself.

23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: The truth is, negative or unproductive comments from uneducated or closed minded people do not bother me.

24. But I love it when people: Encourage and support me as best they can.

25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: I created my own personal motto…I will live my life fully, and experience everything. I will take care of myself. I will have fun, be crazy and be weird.

26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: I am there for them. It can get better.

27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: The opportunities that have opened up for me.

28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: Not to baby me, but let me know they were there when I needed them.

29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: It has become important to me to be an advocate for people with mental health issues. I am one of the lucky ones. I am able to function and have clarity and my therapy and medications seem to work for me right now. Not everyone with a mental health issue is able to achieve that kind of stability in a little over a year of treatment.

30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: Proud. Like what I write about does make a difference.

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