I have had a very difficult time writing lately. My life has been so chaotic lately that it has affected my thoughts. I have had a difficult time getting them organized enough to put anything down on paper. I just cannot seem to focus the way I need – want – to. I need to get back into the habit of setting the time aside to write, and focusing on it until I have completed what I am working on.

One possible solution I have thought of is for me to not be so picky about my form and grammar for a bit. Maybe my desire for everything I publish to be “perfect” is interfering with things right now. I must remember that mistakes are okay, and that it is more important for me to write than to have all my sentences contain proper punctuation.

I also believe that my life is going to be a great deal less chaotic now that I am staying with mom and dad. None of that emotional drama and trauma that has been going on in my life for so long exists here. Life is more peaceful. Before I came here, it felt like I had to constantly battle to be able to take the time to write, or be on the internet. I have to admit that there were some days when I gave up, because it was so much easier than having to fight that same battle again. I was getting worn down. I also felt a bit lost, and disconnected from the internet Mental Health Community that I had come to depend on so much. As awful – in some ways – the last few weeks have been, the events that have taken place have propelled me into action that I had putting off.

I am looking forward to getting back to writing and blog posting. I am also looking forward to catching up on all the blog reading I have been missing.