I really like my counselor. From the time I began seeing her, she has always said that if I needed her, even if I did not have an appointment, she would make time for me. Thursday she did just that. Between what had been going on in my brain and some things that had been brought up during my appointment with the psychiatrist, I knew that I was treading a fine line.

My counselor spent almost an hour with me, and was able to help me process a bit of what is going on.  I asked her if part of the reason I was feeling so overwhelmed by my emotions right now was as a result of not taking Effexor anymore.  I feel part of the reason I have been able to achieve a certain amount of stability in my mental health is because the Effexor sort of “dampened” my emotional response to things.  Now that I am feeling emotions at full strength I am not able to process them.  She agreed that this is probably part of what is going on with me right now. She also pointed out that I have a real problem with any type of strong emotion.

One of the things she feels is coming to the surface is some real anger I have about certain situations with people. Anger that I have not come to terms with.  She suggested that during this time of change that it might be a good idea for me and her to spend some time on the anger and together we can figure out some ways I can let it go.

I am so glad I took the initiative to ask to see my counselor.  I went in a weepy mess, I left feeling a bit stronger.  I am struggling, but at least I know that I have people around who will help me muddle my way through it.